Year In Year Out

As the year draws to a close I get a sinking feeling, I hear a ticking almost like a countdown to things not just current and present, but those yet to happen too. Then it hits me, hey, you have this life, not any other. You have to live today. The ticking clock is not just a reminder that some things are within only the Almighty's control, but that this is your time, my time, the only time we've got to enjoy the gift of life and pass on the benefits of our being to present and future generations. The sinking feeling is not just in recognition that age is catching up, but in recognition that tomorrow's judges will examine what I did with my life today, while I lived.

As the year draws to a close, I give thanks for another free 300plus days. But its amazing how we often wish the year over quickly just so we can start a new slate and set the seldom fulfilled resolutions. The image I get is of a reptile moulting in order to start anew. Just like snakes shed their skin; apparently to get rid of parasites but more importantly to grow, the new year affords us an opportunity to self examine against the things we set out to do and set fresh targets for the new year. We also grow in age! The snake would not grow in size if it did not shed its skin...likewise we would not grow if we carried unresolved issues to subsequent years without a shedding or other solution. Thank heavens ours doesn't have to be so tidious or painful physically.

As the year draws to a close, I prepare to usher in a new one. We seldom, luckily, dwel on the past year. We focus all our intent and attention on the coming one and hopefully retain enough lessons and investments from the old one to make the new one better.

As the year draws to a close, live on...this is our time.

Coming of Age

I finally grew up; in tech terms. Having my first blog now feels like Kimani Maruge stepping into 3rd grade but what the hek! Gotto start somewhere.
I've grown up in many ways this year. Discovered new passions, lost a dear one, cried myself to sleep, grew closer to my God, built a 'lion'. In a sense, growing up has been many mixed feelings and emotions. I learned to be strong for other people, to be weak when I need to, to dictate when I had to, to submit as I ought to. This year has been 300days of waking up every hour to the reality that this is my time, our time. The only chance we got to be whoever we can be, do whatever we can do and leave whatever mark we can on the family and future generations. I have grown, not just in age, wisdom, bank balance, love, size but in mind. That intangible zone is the greatest muscle I have learnt to flex, and I plan to, vigorously!